So have you ever thought how lucky you are ..???
I think most of us take things so granted and forget about some simple joys of life and think it’s trivial.
Here I want to tell you about how my life has changed from upside down and urge you to not make a mistake which I made and enjoy the most valuable gift you have got.
My life was all made of and made by my MOM I didn’t realise her sheer importance until first she got sick than she got in to coma and then she ultimately left us for forever
On initial days I felt nothing I was numb not aware how to response how to accept and what to do. After around 1 month I felt a vacuum and pain like someone has taken a part of me and that has not going to cure by any means.
I felt like everyday how much she was doing for me from morning till night. I was busy in my life building my career and I feel like I haven’t been with her fully, I haven’t finished loving her the way I want, I haven’t completed our to do list, I haven’t completed shopping with her, going on trips, she haven’t seen my marriage on which she was working and made plans, she hadn’t finished cooking all my favourite meals.
Every morning when I wake up I feel like how on earth god can do that, I want her, I want to ask her , I want her to guide me. But alas I can’t take it back, I can’t do anything from that. I feel like my relation with everyone has changed since she is not there,there’s always a missing link.
And you have to accept how hard and painful it is but you have to.
We understand that we didn’t lose a person or a mother we lost an essence of our life. Who is the reason for our existence and who add value to our existence.
Dear mom, my momsy, I hope I can make you proud more and more. I hope I can love all the way you did. I hope I can be even a little perfectionist like you.
Missing you everyday and every second.
Lots of love.